Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Who knows what the tide could bring?


I've always longed to gallop a horse along the shore. Ideally, I picture it being along the rugged coastline of Ireland or some place similiar. While on holiday ages ago, I was able for a brief moment to ride along the North Sea shoreline. Though the ride was fun and the moment exhilirating with the realization of being in that part of the world, it lacked the freedom and passion that I longed for in the experience. I'm still thankful for that opportunity, but my longing for the other has not ebbed. It's been a few weeks now since my car crash, so I've had time to continue on the journey of physically healing. My emotional and mental state is still in the ups and downs of things, as I go through the 'grief' cycle; however, I've not come to any life altering realizations or revelations. People have asked me, do you see life differently now, and appreciate more....well, I say, I work in a critical care baby unit and therefore am privy to seeing tragedy; so, really all in all, I'm thankful everyday for what I have. Sure I've had my 'moan' moments, but I think that is just being human.

When I allow my mind to go back to that night, and relive each millisecond of the crash, thankfullness and tears do come when I think about what I was spared, what my family was spared. If anything, I am more purposed now to aim for making dreams come true, not only my dreams, but for my loved ones, as well. I still think/ask, God? what's the game plan? and hear only silence; yet, when I hear a certain song or glimpse at a picture that causes my spirit to stir, the chest to tighten, my heart to skip a beat, a tear to fall and know that is so right...I need to hold onto that feeling, that thought, and believe in it. My wish if anything is to live less selfishly, not by denying myself my dreams, but perhaps in fulfilling them, if this makes sense. I only ask that my dreams be in accordance with God's will and not from some selfish ambition. With this said, I do believe that in pursuing what's on my heart, fulfilling those dreams, becoming the best that I can be, in this, others will be blessed. Often in the past, I've become discouraged, thinking what I have to offer isn't much, my desires to learn this or that won't amount to anything or be useful; I could go on, but I won't. I think we all have our doubts with things. In this post, I just want to encourage readers here to consider your dreams, consider what you have to offer. Nothing is too small, not even something the size of a mustard seed.


"The purpose of human life is to serve and to show compassion and the will to help others.”
--Albert Schweitzer

"...And I know what I have to do now. I have to keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?"
--Tom Hanks, in the film Cast Away

7 comments:

Nick McGivney said...

'I only ask that my dreams be in accordance with God's will and not from some selfish ambition.'

You could post a million posts, I could write penetrating insights for two eternities, they could add a tower of beautiful observations. It wouldn't add up to anything more than you wrote in that one sentence. Not for me anyway. That there is the whole ballgame. Beautiful.

That Hideous Man said...

To live out a dream inspired by God, in the time we have been given... yes, that's it!

storyteller said...

I’ve shared this ‘galloping a horse along the shore’ image most of my life, and reading your post today makes me wonder why I’ve never acted on this impulse. I’m glad YOU had the opportunity, even though it didn’t quite measure up to your longings. I appreciate you sharing your thoughts (in the aftermath of your horrendous auto accident) here … reminding us all of what matters (and what doesn’t). Thank you! I’m grateful you're still with us and am praying for your full and speedy recovery …
Hugs and blessings,

His Girl Friday said...

Hi Nick, HM, Storyteller,

thanks for your comments, I really do apprecitate them.

Nick, HM,
yes, I really do believe that is the whole ballgame. It's not an easy thing to remember, every day, though; but it helps to focus on this when things don't all seem to be coming together as we would wish. :)

lucy said...

thank you for this beautiful inspiration to follow our dreams. "I do believe that in pursuing what's on my heart, fulfilling those dreams, becoming the best that I can be, in this, others will be blessed." ME too!!!

i think you might enjoy this dream. It is 'lorenzo the flying horseman' :-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YXpxpKTnUr8

Mrs Successful said...

I had quite a bit of catching up to do and knew that if I wanted to read this story, and respond at the same time, I'd have to leave it until I could enjoy every little word, HGF, because you write so well.

So, tonight, I've read that you've had a car crash and will read about it soon(my goodness how dreadful and I'm guessing - until I read differently - that it must've been very serious). I've also read your lovely thoughts on how 'reflection' is playing such a large part in your healing process.

When I opened your story, I also opened the music from your other blog "Secret Garden - Dreamcatcher" at the same time. I now have to nominate you for a "BLOG-OSCAR". The combination of your story and the music was heartrending and I applaud you for such a great unintentional blend of words and music.

Since it's quite a wee while since you posted "Who knows what the tide could bring?",I sincerely hope you're on the mend. Incidentally - I don't think you'd have selfish ambition. xxx

His Girl Friday said...

Hi Lucy,

Thank you for your kind words, and 'back at ya' for the inspirational words! :)

(the Roman riding Frenchman was incredible!!)

Hi Mrs S,

Thank you very much also, for your kind words. These blogs are so wonderful in bringing people together to share, to laugh, and to inspire.
The music was hauntingly lovely, and reminded me of my childhood explorations in the woods of Pennsylvania. I reread some of my posts while listening to the music, and you're right, it really did add emphasis (and use of the tissue box!) :)